Philippines, where love is!

Today I went for a walk in the hot morning sun of the Philippines, and looking at all the fruit trees from my childhood I was in awe how wonderful it was to experience my up bringing in this beautiful native land. I didn't realize all through these long 16 yrs of not coming here that I am in for a big surprise. Life is actually experiencing laughing until you belly hurts and tears filling your eyes full of joy! I can't believe how my cousins, brothers and sisters made me laugh so much, they were so carefree and funny in all ways. We had recollections of how we were back then and they made fun of everything. They had no jobs or material stuff that in the Western culture centers their life around, these people are poor in stuff but rich in spirit!

As I encounter living here, I made a promise myself that I will visit here more often. They opened my eyes to what I'm missing in Canada. The true genuine love and caring of each other and how they are with you in good times and hard times. You won't believe it how they are so happy living simple lives. They have it all along on what is important in this lifetime. This is my father's greatest gift in his passing away, he brought me back to what love is and I'm happy to be here surrounded by my family and beauty of nature.

lttle miracles

Walking in nature yesterday I found these beautiful crocus, can't help myself but stop and awe! What a wonderful miracle right in my eyes, sometimes we are too busy in our own little lives that we don't see the "little miracles" that happens every moment. I took the time to be one with these flowers and it gave me a sense of love and joy.

How can these flowers grow with such splendor without anyone taking care of them? That is the magic of our Divine Creator, in its greatest creations, its manifestations is gently taken care of with its finest and intricate designs with true love. Our humanity is design just like these flowers with love, to give and receive this gift we open our souls to our Divine Creator and say "thank you!"

Memories of Papa

Today I needed to do a lot of follow ups before I can leave the country and be in the Philippines. But my mind is blank as if there is nothing there to do..but just be and everything will be taken care of! I have this sense of calmness within me and my soul seems to be traveling beyond space and time. I already am beside my Papa sitting beside him and touching his forehead.

My childhood memories started pouring out like rain in the storm..why storm? When I was growing up we love singing and dancing in the stormy rain of Asia. As soon as the rain hits the ground we are out there with friends and running all over the neighborhood. This is my childhood days and I love reflecting back because it gives me a sense of spontaneity about what life is supposed to be joyful fun and love.

One of my fondest memory about my father is when he sings for the family of ten children and relatives who are dwelling among us. He sings for my Mama and the song is called "Ramona" that's her name. He adores and loves her, my Papa loves to dance with her and I loved watching them dance around the halls of our huge old Spanish house. He was an actor in his teenage years, but did not pursue his career that way, he ended up to be an Immigration officer in the Airport. I remember him bringing me all kinds of animals when they confiscated them from travelers, he will take them home and I look forward having them as pets:)

He never lays hand on us, very kind and sweet. I loved sitting on his lap and asking him to sing for me and I will sing along with him.."It's a sin to tell a lie!" We lived very close to the Pacific ocean and as a little girl I loved going there everyday, collect shells, bring them home and give them to my Papa..I usually pinched his nose and tell him his nose looks like a shell.

He was a First Aid Attendee in World War 2 and tells me stories about his battle between life and death in Bataan, it was called the "Death March". How he managed to survive and ask God to give him one more day to live and see his family. He was my nurse, I still have this vivid picture of him crushing anti-biotic and putting them in my leg wounds as I was like a boy running around the fields.

This is my Papa, singer, dancer, handsome, kind, loving, generous, lover of wine and women:), and one thing more.. when we were born all 10 of us, he would take our placenta and burry it in the ground with a book. He said this signifies that we will have knowledge and the love of books. I just love how he thinks, love and sing for my soul..I love you Papa, you had taught me what forgiveness truly means and I have forgiven you for your weaknesses because through your weakness I found my strength and courage to be a voice of the sexually abused women. Now that you are there lying in your deathbed one thing I ask God is to give you love and say "you have done well!'

Thank you for bringing me out here in this beautiful world that we have, with all my heart, soul and being, you are my Papa!

Letting Go and let God

Yesterday I received a message that my Papa is in comatose, shocked but not really because I dreamt of "coffin" three days in a row. It's not easy to let go and let God takes its course. I was communicating with a friend to help her ease the pain of losing a cat and in the middle of this, I didn't know that my words will fall upon my path and learn the lesson of letting go...

In my journey when I'm about to lose someone close to me, a cat seems to come my way, out of the blue I get a call that there's a kitten waiting for me. Yesterday, when I received the news about my Papa, "Oscar" came to my home from the Animal Rescue. They are my cat angels, he put me to sleep last night with purring sounds and slept close to my heart.

Today, I will take the time to love myself, to just be and soak in my Papa's love. I know it's not easy for anyone to lose someone but in my heart I'm more closer to him because he will be with me in spirit and every moment I wake up and sleep I know he will be watching me always.

It's funny how half of my lifetime was spent soaking in "victim consciousness" when all along the lesson of forgiveness is what I was trying to find. My Papa gave me this special gift of unconditional love and forgiveness within your heart. When he signed this contract to be my father, he signed for something big because this is the lesson in this lifetime that I want to fulfill. Not knowing, looking at the bigger picture after all these years of pain I forgot to oversee the biggest lesson that I'm trying to find..forgiveness and mercy.

To let go of pain and let God takes us to the path of love and forgiveness, this is my souls purpose and every moment of my life I make sure that I have love and light to share to anyone I meet. Take care of your loved ones and say "I love you!" you never know when your time is up...

Is anybody there?
Hummingbird

living inside the BOX!

This world is full of symbols and it's so funny how we are all caught in these symbols that we are not even consciously aware of most of the times. Can you imagine living inside this box that we created in our mind that we believe is the only way and other people's ways are not true. What is truth? some will say it's relative, others will say there's no absolute truth, what is your take on this?

When we live inside our head, we develop certain beliefs and this is where our perceptions come from. Our thoughts permeate our filter or view of what is life is all about. When we are not aware that this is the roots of our truth we identify with these beliefs that our parents had conditioned us in our childhood years which are crucial in our developmental stage especially with forming our own beliefs. When we live in fear and not shown what love is then we are in this mode of fear and we somehow have difficulty in achieving our highest potential. We are blocked and we see ourselves as living in a small confinement of space and limited with our own personal beliefs.

What a way to live? Open your eyes to these words and may be it will expand your perceptions on how you are seeing things that are happening around you. The only way to get out of this box is for something to happen to take you out of your comfort zone. When we experience detachment from this material world we become aware of our spirit and what is mostly important to us. Our heart speaks of the truth and when we are align in this energetic field "chakras" we become vessel of truth and energy.

Feel where you are most of the times, breathe and connect to your heart. Are you in negative vibrations, allow and become aware of your feelings and they will tell you where you needed to be. The only way to come out of this situation is to let go, risk living within your heart and be still wherever you are. It will come when you allow your thoughts melt within your heart.

Is anybody there?
Hummingbird

The walls have ears:)

The walls have ears, shhhhhhhh! when I hear people talk about others in a derogatory way, I don't feel good inside of me. I literally said "be careful the walls have ears!" It's not because I don't care it's actually because I care. Creating a peaceful place at work sometimes is out of this world. I've given up on helping others but truly just be me, with my presence I don't need to preach. My work is my playground to see how ego and spirit manifest in all different colors. There are shades of black and white or grey. There is an exchange of energy everywhere, and be warn of "vampires" as they are very tricky and knows who to bite:)

These are people who are not aware of what they are doing, asleep and disconnected to their truth. Feeling empty they suck other people's energy especially who are light and happy. I see beyond form and intention, it's simple when you listen, truly open your ears and hear the words that are coming from their hearts, is it true, necessary and kind? When they speak and doesn't resonate to your good vibes then it is a sign to reflect and let go.

Let go of this negative imprints in your field, you don't need it! All you can do is to send this person light and love, for they don't know what they are doing and perhaps it is their own journey and process of transformation. Their actions will have consequences but it's not yours to carry. Stop saving the world, save your sanity:)

Is anybody there?
Hummingbird

Akashic Records Souls

I'm quite delighted that I found my soul group, this is a gift to be able to share my gifts. Today I woke up with fire in my heart and passion to take this opportunity to be able to contribute to others what I have accomplished in this lifetime.

Deep in my heart I know that I've been in this road before and in this window of opportunity so to speak I want to make a difference in reaching out to others to give light. One thing for sure we are all gifts to each others path. Weather you are a student or a teacher the two is the same, it's a paradoxical world we live in. When I teach I become a student, I learn things from my students and as a teacher I take it to my heart what I learn from them and I guess this symbiotic relationship keeps me longing for more.

All is one, we are one in all. Everything is here and given when you open your heart and mind. The mind can not play its games anymore as you become one in ten thousand things as the Tao flows within you and others.

Is anybody there?
Hummingbird